My Dark Corner

This flame is all that's left of my will to move forward, it's my strength in the powerful darkness, able to stay bright in the darkest of days. Like, fire I spread through people's lives burning down what they used to know. I make life difficult for a lot of people, but they love me and wouldn't have it any other way. If only it was their choice. After I graduate I plan on finding a dark corner of the world and hiding there.

I doubt I'll ever be able to hold onto a job of any kind due to all my quirks. I also seem to destroy everything I touch. If I touch someone else's flame I'll accidentally put it out. If someone's life was in my hands I might not be in time to save them. Actually, I may stand there and watch them die depending on the person. Proving my darkness is increasing.

My feeling of someone going to die, that feeling of dread, has turned into a desire to see who it'll be. I'm still afraid of losing someone I love, but I'm more curious then anything. Wondering if somebody dies if that means it was by Jason's hand? With thoughts like that, and Jason's evil plans, I have little choice but to find my dark corner to live in.

Right now I'm on a path I cannot avoid, I cannot turn back. Senior year is going to be a hectic ride that terrifies me most. I've switched schools at least seven times in the past few years and finally I get to graduate beside my best friend before moving on my way to see Virus. It feels like the perfect ending, and that's the ending I want everyone to see. The one where I get to live a short, but happy life that ends with me going on the greatest adventure I'll ever experience. That's where this story should end, don't you think? A nice happy ending for everyone to enjoy. The perfect ending is in the works. The one I'm willing to tell anyway.

...And They All Lived Happily Ever After

He's planning something. Something big. 

Like, I have said in the start of this blog, my life is  like a TV show. Now we enter the season finale with lots of cliffhangers hanging in the air. No, nobody was shot, but it certainly builds up for the final season. It appears like everyone has the potential for a happily ever after expect for me. We have our kickers and our bomb shells of course, but the main plot that seems to be hanging over me is how everyone is parting ways.

It started with news that is a pretty huge secret that I'm unsure if I can keep for the next few months. It got me thinking about how everyone seems to be leaning towards their endings. Even I have some big adventures coming with this final season that I never deemed possible. It appears I really will be able to go see Virus next summer and along with meeting the perfect girl for me along the way. She's perfect, but that's if she is who she claims. Now let's get into those cliffhangers.

My baby brother is deaf in one ear and in six weeks will be undergoing a sugary that my mom is terrified by. He'll be under for at least six hours... It's a risk I'm not happy taking. But, I know he'll make it through alright, because it wraps up my Mom and Step Dad's plot as they just crossed their fifth anniversary.

How about that really big news I'm not supposed to tell, that's already been spilled through town? It seems my father is getting remarried and running off into the sunset in only three months. He'll return to watch me graduate and then after graduation I go with him for two weeks. Another person stepping out my life is Reed as he goes off to the army, soon to be followed by my cousin who is entering the air force.

Those aren't the kicker though, the kicker is what I have decided must be done for everyone to have a happily ever after. If I keep this up much longer my big secret of Jason will be revealed to the world and my family won't ever accept or understand me again. It's a ticking time bomb. I mentioned Jason to a friend online and they suggested an exorcism or for me to master my inner demon taking full force of my intuitive abilities. That was only after Jason has declared all war one me since I didn't deliver my baby brother's vessel to him so he could possess it before my seventeenth birthday.

Perhaps... I'm losing it. Perhaps, Jason is more real then we could ever have imagined. And, he's planning something. Something big. I'm sure Senior year will be hectic enough with me trying to find out how I'll survive - when I can't even tie my own shoes - in a world where my panic attacks will get me committed not to mention fired from a job.

I don't have much choice with what I'm doing after Senior year. That summer I'm taking a road-trip to see my Dad and one with my best friend Zeus to see Virus. I may get to meet the girl of my dreams on the way. If this was what I wanted I wouldn't have worked so hard to fight it. After summer of 2016 I will find myself a dark corner of the world and hide. It's too keep them safe from the inner demons inside me, and maybe I'll learn to control them on the way.